I think I am finally coming to realize that my life from now on will be constantly filled with worry and self doubt as a mom. While there has never been anything wrong with my baby I still find things to worry about, many times things I know I shouldn't be worrying about. Last night Lily slept for 6.5 hours straight (Yay!) and guess what the first thoughts out of my head were this morning...they weren't "wow I had a rest full sleep", "I'm so happy she basically slept through the night", "she is growing up"...they were "That is a long time for her not to eat, I wonder if there is something wrong with her", "Should I have waken her to feed", "I am a bad mom for not feeding her" etc.
I wish there was a way to become more confident in my mommying skills, but I just don't think that is possible with a first child. I understand that the worrying will never stop, but that it will just progress to worrying about other things as she gets older like first boyfriends.
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